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Tweak says, "he was debauched & desperate"

sometimes sanity takes vacation time on me (keieeeye) wrote,
@ 2009-06-09 11:42:00

Current mood:	devastated
Entry tags:	bunbun, the end is nigh

:'(
Have returned from the vet.

Holly's headtilt is not improving. Despite the antibiotics, antiparasitics and steroids his eye's started weeping due to the difficulty in closing it, and he's started snuffling because the weeping is trickling over his nose and making it harder to breathe. He's still active and eating, but he's getting underweight and beginning to turn in circles more.

Dr Heather is recommending he be put to sleep and sent me home to think about it over the next couple of days. I don't know what to do. I haven't stopped crying for the last hour. I just want to give him a cuddle and make it all better and I can't even though I've done everything right, above and beyond the necessary. RIght now I'm just watching him grooming and wishing I could get inside his head and know how he feels. I don't know if he's happy or not. He chases me round and cuddles me but is it really enough to keep him alive? I don't want to let go, but if he's suffering I can't put my own selfishness ahead of his wellbeing.

I almost wish he would die quietly in his sleep so I don't have to decide but he isn't unwell enough for that. I have to make the choice for him and I don't know how.

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	aristoboule 2009-06-08 06:57 pm UTC (link)
	MANY hugs (Reply to this)

corporatecake
2009-06-08 07:03 pm UTC (link)

I'm really sorry that he's not getting better, sweetheart. I think that instances like these are really the hardest with pets, because he's so young that it makes it harder to make the decision to let go, and you can't know if he'll somehow get better or if he'll just keep hurting with nothing you can do about it.

Obviously only you can make this decision but I don't think that there is a right or a wrong one as long as you have Holly's best interests at heart.

Let me know if there's anything I can do for you ♥

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	sherlock 2009-06-08 07:52 pm UTC (link)
	oh god, sweetheart, I am SO sorry. That is the worst decision to have to make. Are there no super aggressive treatments they can try before you actually have to give up? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	keieeeye 2009-06-08 10:34 pm UTC (link)
	nope we were already pushing medicine on him. :(:( (Reply to this) (Parent)

sylumgator
2009-06-08 08:30 pm UTC (link)

Oh, HuggLES AND HuggLES you! I don't know what to say or do. I mean, everyone says if they are eating and appear happy, let them be. Maybe contact a bunny group, and ask if anyone knows of something that would help?
Oh, first my LJ friend's birdie, and now possibly bunbun. *sniffs* My Red Dwarf will take good care of him, if you have to let him go. He adored animals, and they adored him. Silly old dog.

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	aliciadances 2009-06-08 08:47 pm UTC (link)
	i'm so sorry, kei ♥ hugs (Reply to this)

	rainbowling 2009-06-08 11:00 pm UTC (link)
	I'm so sorry :( (Reply to this)

katling
2009-06-08 11:21 pm UTC (link)

I'm so sorry. *hugs* I just read that and now I want to cry.

As a pet owner, I know it's the worst nightmare of anyone who owns an animal. I was terrified I might have to make that decision for Igloo as she got older (though she ended up dying quietly at home) and I know it lingers in the back of my head now I have Carys.

I guess the only thing you can do is take the time the vet has given you. Don't make a decision now while the shock of getting that news is still fresh. Even have a look around and see whether there might be some other option. I know in the end you'll make the right decision whatever that decision is. That's because you love him, enough to do what is best for him.

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	spacelogic 2009-06-09 12:15 am UTC (link)
	hugs I'm sorry. That's a terrible decision to have to make. (Reply to this)

liebe_maus
2009-06-09 12:43 am UTC (link)

Wow, that's really sad about the bunny :-(

When my first cat was sick, my parents had also hoped she would pass in her sleep - it's really difficult to make the decision to put a beloved pet down.

If you do decide to do it, will the vet let you hold him and have some private time? Our vet let us stay with the cat until we were ready to go home, and they mailed a sympathy card to our house later that week.

It's never a fun time, but vets of all people understand an animal's place in the family, and will often do everything in their power to make hard times as humane and comfortable as possible.

Good luck with everything ♥

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	hafren 2009-06-09 01:09 am UTC (link)
	Oh Kei :( Cuddles for Holly and super hugs for you. I don't even know what I would do. That's the worst sort of decision in the world. I'm so sorry. ♥ ♥ (Reply to this)

	mathteacher 2009-06-09 04:05 am UTC (link)
	hugs (Reply to this)

	walburga 2009-06-09 08:00 am UTC (link)
	Having to say goodbye to your pet is the worst thing ever. Many, many hugs, lovey. (Reply to this)

	tracichan 2009-06-09 10:13 am UTC (link)
	OMG. hugs I know how it sucks to have to make a decision like this. My heart's with you. (Reply to this)

	cupcakecalamity 2009-06-09 11:09 am UTC (link)
	OMF. Kei, I'm so sorry. I am going to pray so hard for your bunny, hun. SO HARD. (Reply to this)

	outofpotions 2009-06-09 03:35 pm UTC (link)
	That sucks. :/// I'm really sorry. (Reply to this)

	guiltyred 2009-06-10 01:07 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, sweetie. quiet hugs (Reply to this)

	stellar_dust 2009-06-10 07:59 pm UTC (link)
	Oh no, I'm so sorry! I hope he keeps doing better! (Reply to this)